Onew Fanfic Part #2

*beep... beep..beep..* You awake to a really irritating beeping noise.. Ah.. It was just your alarm clock. You slowly uncurl from your "ball" and become increasingly aware of the aches in your body. It didn't matter. Nothing really did matter after he left.  You look down at the picture of Onew on your lap and give a big sigh.. You knew that things can't go on like this. It had to stop. If things went on like this, you knew that you were going to end up in an asylum pretty soon.

You gently put back the picture into the box and gave it one last longing look before putting on the lid. You held the box in your arm and stood up. You went to the kitchen and opened the lid of the rubbish chute. You stare down into it. Nothing there but darkness. It seemed so empty, so forbidding, so lonely... So cold.. "Like me" you muttered under your breath. You hesitated for a while.. But still, you gave the box one last longing look before sending the box hurtling down to the deep deep deep bottom of the rubbish chute.  You instantly regretted. But you didn't cry or rush down to try to pick it up because you knew that it was for the best. For your sake. And for Onew's too... 


Strange. The word just rolls off your tongue now.. Onew onew onew.. The name I loved.. My romeo. My oxygen. My everything.. Yet my lucifer at the same time.. You gave a little smirk at the thought..  You felt tired. You slid down on the floor. Your eyelids were getting heavier and your vision started to blur... You tried to protest against it - The strange force that wills you to close your eyes and go to sleep. You knew what was waiting for you if you sleep. The same torturing dream. Again and again. The one that makes you terrified of sleeping. The same one that made those ugly ugly ugly eye bags on your pretty face. Nevertheless, the temptation of sleep managed to persuade you once again and you soon fell into a deep sleep..................